lately i've been really depressed.
i'm talking about this here because whenever i try to tell someone
i just can't seem to find the words.

i'm beginning to realize that when it comes to living on my own,
i'm pretty much screwed.
i'm so dependent on my parents and everyone else.
i don't know what the hell i'm going to do when i have to be all by myself.

in addition to that i've got a bunch of health issues.
nothing big, really.
just a lot of little things that are starting to pile up.
they're not really related in any way either
so i'll probably end up seeing a few different doctors.

also, i can't find any inspiration for my photography.
i'm really unhappy with myself.
i'm starting college in the fall
and now i'm just complaining.

i guess i'm just really stressed out.

i know i'm going to be able to get through it though.
people have been through a lot worse
and i've got people who love me by my side.
especially my boyfriend.
he's noticed it more than anyone else and i know he's here for me.

i think that if i could find something to focus on i could get out of this.

i came across this group on flickr called 365 Days.
(http://flickr.com/groups/365days/)
and i really want to try it out.
obviously you take one picture of yourself every day for one year.
i don't think i'm going to post them on the flickr group
but i'll probably put them on here at the end of my entries or something.
i figured since it has to do with photography it would keep me interested
and really force me to get creative.
if i can keep with it i think it might serve as a form of therapy for me.
i'm actually pretty excited.
i'm going to try to start tomorrow.